Sunday, March 18, 2012

the trees are alive! literally.....



Its a story thats been told a million times. We all grow up and (some of us) loose all of the imagination we had as children. For some of us, there in no Neverland corner in our minds that never truly grows up. There is no room in our sensible grown up lives for fairies that live in our well groomed and regularly pesticised gardens, or far away lands that can be entered from a looking glass in our now well organized and de-cluttered attics.  As children we created imaginary friends who could  fly, or turned a tree house into a space ship that circled the moon at least five times a night. I recall as a child, being convinced that i saw the Lochness monster in a canal in Chatham as we were driving through  town enroute to Sarnia. I never once doubted that what I saw was true, but now that I am all grown up i am forced to tell myself that what i saw was just the whimsy of a little girl absolutely obsessed with sea creatures and my mind made up an image that projected itself into that river because i so wanted it to be true.( Now, whether or not that is true is still debatable if you ask me)

The question that I am asking today is: Why do we have to automatically assume everything we "imagined" as children is simply that; a figment of an over active imagination? There are some things that I made up as a child that i absolutely know now were make believe. But there are some memories that i choose not to chalk up to imagination. If that makes me crazy, than i accept the title with absolute pleasure. One memory in particular, that i can recall as if it was yesterday, is the one that i will tell you in the rest of this blog. As you read, try to remember something whimsical that you experienced as a child and decide whether or not you will accept it as make believe or an unexplained mystery that you were a part of.

When I was a little girl, my daddy used to tell me that every tree came alive at night and danced around the forest and neighbourhood. (For those of you who don't know, my daddy is Native American and I always just automatically assumed he knew everything there was to know about nature because Pocahontas did in the movie. Major stereotyping i know but i was 6, give me a break!). At first it made me a tad uneasy thinking of ominous oak trees loafing around my back yard, possibly peering into my window with its big, brown, bark eye. However, being the brave 6 year old seeker of adventure that I was, I decided to stage a stake out at the most forested magical place i knew… Grampa and Gramma's house. 
My Grandparents lived in a little town called Sauble Beach in northern Ontario. A quaint little white cottage engulfed by a forest filled with woodland creatures and just a hop, skip and a jump away from a slightly untamed stretch of beach. In the summer we would drive up to see them almost every weekend so I waited for our next visit to put my daddy's claim to the test. So one night when we were visiting, I strategically asked my parents if i could sleep on the couch next to the window facing the backyard so i could spend the entire night waiting for the trees to come alive.
The the sun had set hours before, and I anxiously awaited for any sign of movement other than then summer wind swishing through the branches and leaves.  When the clock struck 11:45 and I still had seen no movement what so ever I was left with only two things to believe: 1. My daddy was a liar (and of course that could not ever be the case!)… or 2. that the trees were nervous and just waiting for everyone to fall asleep before they started their nightly dance. The answer was simple. By the sound of both my grampa and daddy's nightly song of harmonized snoring filling the hallway leading to their rooms, i knew i was the only person awake. So i  pretended to sleepily nestle into my blankets, close my eyes and fall asleep. 


I had my eyes closed for about 2 minutes when i heard a faint creaking sound coming from the yard. Almost like the noise an old wooden sailboat makes as it rocks back and forth and hits the docks at the marina.  It was nearing midnight and i just knew something magical was happening. I slowly crept out of my warm sheets and peeked my head over the edge of the couch and stared out at the moonlit forest. It started off with just one little tree's branches shaking a little harder than the faint summer breeze allowed. And then the maple tree behind it began to shift to the left, and the oak tree behind that shifted to the right, until at once every tree came alive and began dancing around the forest as if the wind was playing a waltz that only they could hear. Of course i was terrified at first. My daddy was right!! The forest is alive! But before i could jump off the couch and run for help, the tiny little cherry tree at the edge of the forest that i had climbed at least a million times that summer, stepped out from the intertwining dance and waved a branch at me as if to say "hello, you can come join us if you'd like." At that moment i was at ease and I laid there with my head blissfully resting on my grammas orange and brown plaid couch, watching the trees dance the night away to the beat of a silent fairy drum, until the sandman got the better of me and I slowly drifted away to sleep.


Now if I were any sane, normal, 23 year old young woman, I should really believe that I had fallen asleep whilst waiting for the trees to come alive and dreamed this whole scenario up. But thankfully I am not, and I chose to hold that memory dear to my heart and I will forever wait for the day I can tell my own daughter about the tree ballet that happens every night while the whole world sleeps. 

And so, I leave you with a quote by a man that never truly grew up and because of it, allowed millions of children to dream and grow up to be imaginative dream chasers like me.

"Too many people grow up. That's the real trouble with the world, too many people grow up. They forget. They don't remember what it's like to be 12 years old. They patronize, they treat children as inferiors. Well I won't do that."
- Walt Disney





Friday, February 17, 2012

I do believe in Fairies.. i do, i do!


When I was a little girl there was a lady in my hometown of Sarnia, Ontario (the fact that Sarnia sounded awfully close to "Narnia" was of no way a coincidence to me growing up) who used to set up little fairy houses in her garden and open her backyard to any children, parents or fairy enthusiasts who cared to see them and search for the ever allusive tiny tenants who inhabited them. It was such a spring tradition to hold my mommy's hand and imagine being tiny enough to live on  flower or under a toadstool.

That was well over 15 years ago, and bless her soul, but I don't believe she is still opening her garden to the public anymore. I suppose the Fairies grew tired of visitors and kindly asked her to allow them to spend the rest of their days behind closed doors... or closed flower petals in this case.


I've decided that I am going to carry on her tradition as soon as I have a garden of my own to tend too! So I looked up some pictures for inspiration and here are some of my favourites! I hope you enjoy them as much as I do!!




For sure my future home ^  just toooooo cute!!

Friday, February 10, 2012

Sir Stranger, Knight of Dollarama and Fearless Defender of a Maidens' Safety

 I don't know about you, but most days I wish I lived in the 17th century instead of the 21st. One of the main reasons, of course, being I would get to spend everyday of my life luxuriating in floor length gold satin gowns with puffed sleeves whilst pouring over a book in the bay window over looking the garden of my castle. I would of course have to be some form of royalty for this to actually happen. If not, the 17th century may very well have been a nightmare for me. Spending everyday in an itchy sackcloth dress (that i am sure would do NOTHING for my complexion) lugging buckets of milk on my shoulders up and down the hill, and then at the end of day having no electricity or hot water to take my regular one hour long bubble bath. Although lets be serious, i would most likely be a princess.

 Needless to say, there were both good and bad things about the middle ages, but the most important, and seriously lacking in our society today, was a little thing called CHIVALRY. For those of you who may have no idea what I am talking about here and think that Chivalry is another word for an ancient shovel, an expensive cheese or a brand of jeans let me explain. Chivalry was a code that Knights lived by in their everyday lives. They were not only expected to be fearless warriors but also gentlemen and kind hearted outside of battle. It was explained and written down in "The Songs of Roland" also known as "Charlemagne's Code of Chivalry" composed between 1098-1100:

 To fear God and maintain His Church
 To serve the liege lord in valour and faith
 To protect the weak and defenceless
 To give succour to widows and orphans
 To refrain from the wanton giving of offence
 To live by honour and for glory
To despise pecuniary reward
To fight for the welfare of all
To obey those placed in authority
To guard the honour of fellow knights
To eschew unfairness, meanness and deceit
To keep faith At all times to speak the truth
To persevere to the end in any enterprise begun
To respect the honour of women
Never to refuse a challenge from an equal
Never to turn the back upon a foe

 Now what woman in her right mind would NOT want a man like this? And what man in their right mind would not want to live their life to honour this code? This all brings me to the main point of this post.

 Today the cutest little old man in his late 70's, who I should very well have been opening a door for, went out of his way to open the door for me at dollarama. He then proceeded to walk me to my car so i wouldn't slip on the ice and told me to drive safely in the snow and have a lovely day.

 Sigh..... now that is a true gentleman! I think that our generation has a lot to learn from people like this sweet old man. And call me old fashion but i still think that if there is a lady standing on a bus no matter how old or young she may be (and ESPECIALLY if she is in heels), that a a sturdy healthy young man should always give up their seat. I can't tell you how many times i have seen people stay sitting when their is a pregnant lady or elderly person standing directly in front of them. The same goes for woman. There is no reason we can't live by the laws of chivalry and give up our seats as well!

 Haven't you ever dreamed of being a fearless knight or lady warrior?? Well here's your chance! Let's all try to integrate at least one of the points from the Code of Chivalry a day into our daily routine. Trust me, the world will be a better place for all because of it.



 Ps. Just to clarify, I am dating a Knight of my very own, so this doesn't pertain to you hunny, you are doing just fine. Love you xoxo

Thursday, February 9, 2012

how do gypsies pack?


My mom has taken to calling me "Gypsy Girl" these past couple of years because i tend to not stay in one place very long. However romantic and adventurous that may sound, it is also very frustrating when it comes to packing. If I was one of those girls who could get by with two pairs of jeans, two t-shirts, a sweater and a pair of UGGs for a week visit at home, things would be a lot easier. And don't think I haven't tried! But i just can't escape that feeling of horror that creeps up in the back of my mind when I contemplate the possibility of being left stranded in my hometown with out at least one pair of black 6 inch stilettos and a pink party dress when being invited for a nice dinner out and having only a pair of black flats, leggings and rock-t at my disposal! Or being left cowboy bootless when asked spontaneously to go shopping at the farmers market, where my new semi distressed brown and pink boots would be right at home. Even worse than that is not having access to my treasure troth of jewelry! So even if i were to pack a plain white t-shirt and pair of skinny jeans how could i (or any self respecting fashionista) fathom going out in public without my rhinestone owl necklace, 50 multi coloured bollywood inspired bangles, amber and turquoise ring and at least a feather or two in my hair? It's just not even an option! Therefore i am doomed to a life of over packing by at least two full suitcases, in a life where packing and unpacking is a part of my everyday existence.

Sigh...my packing rant is over. Now onto the photos for this blog. I was inspired by my overpacked suitcase to look for cool vintage suitcases and this is what i found!




Wednesday, February 8, 2012

shabby chic gorgeousness...

i just think this is the most stunning little cottage. What a perfect little artist's getaway. I would love to spend a week here just reading, writing and interacting with the local forest fairies





Tuesday, February 7, 2012

This is me!

Well Hey there! thanks for taking the time to check out my blog. If you have followed me here from facebook or know me as a performer, don't worry... this isnt another way of promoting my music career! haha as a matter of fact i wont be posting anything here that has to do with me as a performer. This is just a place i am going to post things i like and make me happy. Pictures, music videos, art , quotes... tattoos.

I was going through folders on my computer the other day of all of the cool pictures i have found on the internet that have inspired and intrigued me the past little while and realized i had created quite the collection. I have one folder titled "wish". Its started off as a virtual "Hope chest", filled with pictures of wedding dresses and decor to keep for the future and then i started adding pictures of home decor that i thought was stunning and it just kept getting bigger and bigger and bigger. I have another folder titled "love". And its just picture of quotes, fabrics, flowers, feathers, tattoos, trees, animals, fashion and gardens. Anywho, i've decided its time i share these with people and keep the ball rolling as i found most of these pictures on blogs much like this one.

I hope you like it and are inspired like i was by these picture... or that your boredom is at least cured for the few minutes it takes you to look through them. either one will work <3








Thursday, March 4, 2010

SO busy and LOVINGGG Osaka!





well it has been along time since i have done a blog so i wanted to make sure i took the time out to fill everyone in.

It was funny. i was listening to my ipod on the way home from rehearsal today . The playlist i was listening to was from around 6 months ago, when i was traveling back and forth from sarnia to toronto for Highschool musical shows and rehearsals with my band for the tim mcgraw concert. Never in a million years would i have thought at that point that i would be listening to the same playlist is osaka, japan only a few months later.

it was like having an old friend with me and made me a little less homesick.

anywayssssssss rehearsals are going so great! the choreo is all done and now i can just spend time getting it in my head!

I'm not a trained dancer so this has been kinda tough for me but its a really great feeling when you actually get it down!

Other than that i just cant wait for the show to open and to start doing this show for an audience! WOO!

ok well thats about it for now. here are some new pics! More to come later!